A good outcome - Music performance anxiety
Beethoven's 6th piano sonata (op. 10 no. 2) makes part of the demanding Op. 10 triptych. Following months of practice and having memorised it, my due performance at Sibelius Academy approached. Since one week before, I noticed my old-friend anxiety was back. As part of my preparation, I recorded myself playing in two conditions: without anyone observing me, and during an online recital for friends and colleagues. I could have played with my score, but I decided not to do so and challenge me further. During the online recital, I had a memory lapse during the recapitulation of the third movement. A new problem, certainly. Here you can observe what happened to me while playing life: Naturally, this bothered me, specially since it is such a climatic section in the sonata (it is the first time in the movement that Beethoven indicates a fortissimo, ff). I swore and laughed mentally of the accident. I learned to things from this experience. First, when I mar...